You gotta be a little crazy

its now 6:11 in the AM and for the last hour and a bit i have been twirling around my living room, lyrics in one hand, voice recorder in the other singing at the top of my lungs. No, its not because i am certifiable, its because i am rehearsing for a singing audition i have later this morning. I sort of wish someone had been candidly filming me. it would make for hilarious viewing!

It would be totally delightful if i was suitably dressed in long flowing dress  but i’m in a massive dressing gown and slippers and the room smells vaguelly off vomit from where my dog tossed her cookies last night.

Yes I was up at 1am for an hour cleaning up dog vomit from various parts of the carpet. its all glamour here let me tell you! If I’ve learned anything so far in this crazy life its to laugh at yourself as often as you can and to see the humour (as dark as it may sometimes be) in as much as you can. Yesterday I was reminded that trying to be someone you think others will approve of, or someone you think you should be is no road to happiness. Putting on airs or attempting to portray a persona is not authentic – its just a layer to protect the real you from being seen. When you learn that you are enough with all your shortcomings, your imperfections and you peculiarities then you will begin to know happiness and you can begin to have meaningful strong relationships with the people in your life. and another thing. Never gossip – never speak badly about another human being. not ever. Keep those thoughts to yourself, write them down if you have to but dont verbalise them to anyone else. thats not being secretive, its protecting your happiness. Gosipping and speaking ill about other people no matter how they have hurt you will only hurt you. I have most certainly learned that. why? because it is very negative and negativity attracts more negativity and will have you in a cycle of ugliness. And you’re a gorgeous glamorous girl – there is no space for ugliness in your life.

I’d love to hear what crazy antics you get up to when you’re all alone, whether its preparing for work or just blowing off some steam.




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Diet, Disasters and Detox…

I’ve decided that May –  well from mid May to mid June is going to be detox month for me, for my family, my business and my home.
That means getting rid of the things that slow us down, that we don’t love and don’t love us (like wheat and the cockroaches in the outside drain and clutter)
The first detox for me to tackle is the body one and also the hardest but i’m hoping that if I spring clean my health it will filter into my life in general.
I’ve spent my entire life following one diet after another diet, learning contradicting things about nutrition from everyone from my mom to a silicon valley millionaire turned diet guru, to a sports science doctor turned crazy man and i’ve lost some, i’ve gained it back and lost it and gained it and well, you get the picture.
My most recent run in with a diet was buying into the idea of the BULLETPROOF DIET and let me say that i got the most spectacular results. i put on 5 kilos in 2 weeks. yes thats right! you read that correctly. in 2 weeks! almost not even humanly possible you say?
whats beyond frustrating is that i wasn’t even attempting to lose weight – my weight was great. I wanted the other touted virtues like better brain function, higher levels of concentration and laser like focus.
What i got was a fat ass and now i am struggling to get rid of it and i don’t feel very clever either. Infact i feel like a complete idiot. Who buys that you can eat fat all day long and not get fat or die of a major disease?
It’s so bad that i don’t want to go out, i don’t want to see friends, heck i don’t even want to get dressed in the morning. its seriously depressing stuff so i was interested to read about one of the top 10 books you need to read in your life (thats non fiction) called THE CHINA STUDY. The most comprehensive study of nutrition ever conducted. this is not a diet book in the sense of a hot new trending diet – its actual science and it talks about disease and the link to nutrition and unlike the gazillion other books about diet and nutrition its’ in fact based in science.
it also advocates veganism-  something i have always  been terrified of. It seems so drastic. But the fact is I am 43, i have very little interest in contracting a degenerative disease and a whole lot of interest in losing some of my wobbly bits so i’m going to give it a one month test.
I will post my progress here and we can see what happens within that month – if i’m an anaemic mess or  fit, fabulous and on the way to flab free.

i’m excited!

those days

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the thing is there are going to be those days…

when the baby sitter lets you down. when it seems your friends are bailing on you left right and centre, when you feel utterly alone and so very sad. there are going to be those days when your jeans feel like they schrunk 3 sizes in the wash, when you cant even count on your shampoo. When every decision you have made seems questionable at best and when your full length mirror seems really quite spiteful.

There are going to be those days. The thing is not to give in to self pity – the long slippery slope toward tragic doom and gloom. or maybe its to see it – look it in the eye – say “hey day i see what you’re doing and screw you.”

its just a day. tomorrow will look different. the heartbreak will mend – no really it will. the doubts will subside, the sun will shine and yes, you will smile again.

in the mean time for me its finding the sexiest man I can to watch on a TV Series and giving in without guilt to the pleasure of hours of him. thank you Idris Elba for being my guiltless pleasure.

Today you are my sunshine x